Not trying to make this post all depressing and such. Recently ex-girlfriend and I decided (well, really mostly her) to just cease communication between us and move on from each other. A little background information is we were a long distance relationship for about a year. We officially broken up though afterwards we talked still and showed each other feelings. Till we got into an argument and she was saying stuff like she just needed to have fun, not feeling any baggage from a relationship, wanting to be flirty, wanting a physical connection, etc. Then she asks me to vent to her because I never had vented to her during our conflicts before this one so I did. Basically what I told her is wanting a physical connection is stupid because I was going to move in with her in Australia after high school since I saved up. I wanted to be with her after school which ends in 6 months and not let her wait any longer. I told her why couldn't she just be patient like she told me to be so she can have that ''physical connection'' and breaking up with me just because we're not having sex is beyond stupid. Anyways, I told her along those lines and she felt like I was talking to her as a slut, harlot, etc. I have apologized afterwards, told her nobody deserve to be talked badly like that, etc. So this one day I wake up early to go to a university campus visit and I checked my Facebook messages to see if she sent me a message. She sent a long message stating she talked to her mom about what I said to her, what she said to me and stuff like that. She stated in the message that it wasn't fair for her to be hurting when she talks to me, how I didn't deserve to get a chance to be friends after talking to her as a ''harlot'', and that she was going to block all communications we had so we could move on.
I'm not mad at her for doing this though I'm upset I wasn't able to tell her goodbye and tell her how I feel about this. I honestly do not have any close friends for support so journal entries I started and any stranger who is kind to help me in the internet is all I have. I do have great parents though they always make fun of me about my personal issues and think they're petty so they don't take me serious. I'm afraid they're going to do that to me so I've been keeping to myself about this. All I've been doing to help is focusing on high school and watching lots TV shows after school. I mean hours of episode back to back kind of thing. I do not know how to move on from this. It's been about a week or so after she blocked me. By now I should at least be okay, right? I have deleted her pictures off my phone, her Facebook messages, her number, and any other apps we used to talk to each other. I have started a new ''official'' hobby rather than just watching TV and playing video games. To help me overcome this though it doesn't start till I get what I need to start the hobby. The hobby is growing carnivorous plants. You know, plants like Venus Fly Traps and pitcher plants. I have bought most of the supplies besides a lamp and this adapter to have two light bubs in one so whenever the weather gets cold I could bring my plants inside. I don't get the plants itself till this Friday or next week. I honestly do not know how to deal with this. I've been watching Legend of Korra and focusing on school to keep my head busy.
TL;DR:
OP is upset over a girl and doesn't know how to move on.
I'm not mad at her for doing this though I'm upset I wasn't able to tell her goodbye and tell her how I feel about this. I honestly do not have any close friends for support so journal entries I started and any stranger who is kind to help me in the internet is all I have. I do have great parents though they always make fun of me about my personal issues and think they're petty so they don't take me serious. I'm afraid they're going to do that to me so I've been keeping to myself about this. All I've been doing to help is focusing on high school and watching lots TV shows after school. I mean hours of episode back to back kind of thing. I do not know how to move on from this. It's been about a week or so after she blocked me. By now I should at least be okay, right? I have deleted her pictures off my phone, her Facebook messages, her number, and any other apps we used to talk to each other. I have started a new ''official'' hobby rather than just watching TV and playing video games. To help me overcome this though it doesn't start till I get what I need to start the hobby. The hobby is growing carnivorous plants. You know, plants like Venus Fly Traps and pitcher plants. I have bought most of the supplies besides a lamp and this adapter to have two light bubs in one so whenever the weather gets cold I could bring my plants inside. I don't get the plants itself till this Friday or next week. I honestly do not know how to deal with this. I've been watching Legend of Korra and focusing on school to keep my head busy.
TL;DR:
OP is upset over a girl and doesn't know how to move on.