01-03-2012, 09:25 AM
Hey everyone.
So, I've been struggling with misophonia for around 10-12 years now. I'm currently 19.
For those of you unfamiliar with misophonia (probably most of you)...
Wikipedia:
I've always been driven to the point of near-insanity by what I now know are called "trigger sounds". Always assumed it was normal, or that it was a problem with my own attitude. I was told from a young age by family and friends that I mentioned it to to just ignore those sounds, or that I was simply attempting to micromanage things going on around me.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BIhoEtlgiyI
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y11iPr_i-RQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rlWHLx9PTE4
These clips can just give you an idea of what it's like to exist on a minute to minute basis. There is no real freedom from sounds like that, because most people don't even know that they're being made... and it feels impossible to "correct" someone on something that they don't know they're doing, that is only effecting me.
Unfortunately for me, sometimes it isn't even just the sound that causes the trigger. If I'm exposed to those sounds, and then block my ears or listen to music or something along those lines, and the motion that causes those sounds is still visible... the reaction is nearly the same. It causes unpreventable twitching, clenched fists, clenched stomach, feelings of violence. I need to block out both the sound AND the sight in order to avoid the reaction. And even then, simple awareness of the action drives me to the point of insanity.
Here are a few more links on the condition.
http://www.audiologyonline.com/news/news...ws_id=4897
http://www.nytimes.com/2011/09/06/health....html?_r=3
Some are now theorizing that misophonia is actually a neurological condition, at least in part. There's the idea that the brain is recognizing normal sounds as "fight or flight" panic sounds, activating feelings of fear, anxiety, panic, rage, and anger. It's basically all of those mashed into a little ball, squared.
So, I've been struggling with misophonia for around 10-12 years now. I'm currently 19.
For those of you unfamiliar with misophonia (probably most of you)...
Wikipedia:
Quote:Misophonia, literally “hatred of sound”, is a form of decreased sound tolerance, also known as Selective Sound Sensitivity Syndrome or 4S.
People who have misophonia are most commonly annoyed, or even enraged, by the sound of other people eating, breathing, coughing, or other ordinary sounds.
I've always been driven to the point of near-insanity by what I now know are called "trigger sounds". Always assumed it was normal, or that it was a problem with my own attitude. I was told from a young age by family and friends that I mentioned it to to just ignore those sounds, or that I was simply attempting to micromanage things going on around me.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BIhoEtlgiyI
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y11iPr_i-RQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rlWHLx9PTE4
These clips can just give you an idea of what it's like to exist on a minute to minute basis. There is no real freedom from sounds like that, because most people don't even know that they're being made... and it feels impossible to "correct" someone on something that they don't know they're doing, that is only effecting me.
Quote:"I can't describe it any other way except absolute and total disgust and revulsion."
Quote:"I can't eat near people. I want to vomit, throw things, cry, and scream... any noise that comes out of someone's mouth from eating or finishing eating makes me want to die."
Unfortunately for me, sometimes it isn't even just the sound that causes the trigger. If I'm exposed to those sounds, and then block my ears or listen to music or something along those lines, and the motion that causes those sounds is still visible... the reaction is nearly the same. It causes unpreventable twitching, clenched fists, clenched stomach, feelings of violence. I need to block out both the sound AND the sight in order to avoid the reaction. And even then, simple awareness of the action drives me to the point of insanity.
Here are a few more links on the condition.
http://www.audiologyonline.com/news/news...ws_id=4897
http://www.nytimes.com/2011/09/06/health....html?_r=3
Some are now theorizing that misophonia is actually a neurological condition, at least in part. There's the idea that the brain is recognizing normal sounds as "fight or flight" panic sounds, activating feelings of fear, anxiety, panic, rage, and anger. It's basically all of those mashed into a little ball, squared.