12-05-2011, 11:31 AM
I found these forums looking for help online. I know I should probably get professional guidance, but I need to talk to someone and try to get some perspective.
Thank you in advance if you read this post.
I am currently feeling lost and pointless in a job and career I chose.
The job pays very well for an online job in marketing and my employers are kind, gentle people who have said they are respectful of my work and thought process -I don't even know what that means, but they said it was a compliment.
I mean, my employers act like they like me and find me useful, even though I don't find myself useful and I feel they are wasting their money with me.
I am struggling with the decision to quit, to try to figure out what I want.
I've saved enough this year to allow myself a small break from work to define my goals, but those savings are my way to get a house someday, so I feel guilty using them.
I chose to study mass media and to work in marketing and PR because I thought I'd be good at it and I liked the idea of advertising and creating wonderful pieces that affect someone's day. I know that's stupid, but I liked the idea of it, working in it however, makes me feel pointless and without cause.
When I was younger I switched careers because of family issues and moving away, but I was not super satisfied with graphic design either. I love design 'though, I just also felt I was no good at it because the other students were so much better at it than me.
I think I am the only one who sees this, I got good grades in college and my employers seem to like me, but I can't help but feel like I'm robbing them blind: I'm not getting them any results, why stick with me?
Having had financial struggles most of my life, I started working at 15 and have taken as many jobs as I could in any number of fields, just to make ends meet.
For the first time in my life I'm not surviving it, but I feel like drowning because I feel -blank- I've lost the will power to do anything. I feel terrible because I know people have it much worse than me and they are happy, I have a boyfriend who loves me and has for over 5 years. My parents are great with me and I have both of them alive, I have some friends and the ones I have are true. I have no children or responsibilities other than helping my parents..
Why do I feel so guilty and useless to live?
How do I find out what is my passion, when I feel like I have none. I want to make the right choice. I want to figure out what it is that I'm meant to do and find out if I there is something I love to do, to make a living in it...
Does anyone know how to figure that out?
I'm sorry if this was just crazy ranting... Thank you.
Thank you in advance if you read this post.
I am currently feeling lost and pointless in a job and career I chose.
The job pays very well for an online job in marketing and my employers are kind, gentle people who have said they are respectful of my work and thought process -I don't even know what that means, but they said it was a compliment.
I mean, my employers act like they like me and find me useful, even though I don't find myself useful and I feel they are wasting their money with me.
I am struggling with the decision to quit, to try to figure out what I want.
I've saved enough this year to allow myself a small break from work to define my goals, but those savings are my way to get a house someday, so I feel guilty using them.
I chose to study mass media and to work in marketing and PR because I thought I'd be good at it and I liked the idea of advertising and creating wonderful pieces that affect someone's day. I know that's stupid, but I liked the idea of it, working in it however, makes me feel pointless and without cause.
When I was younger I switched careers because of family issues and moving away, but I was not super satisfied with graphic design either. I love design 'though, I just also felt I was no good at it because the other students were so much better at it than me.
I think I am the only one who sees this, I got good grades in college and my employers seem to like me, but I can't help but feel like I'm robbing them blind: I'm not getting them any results, why stick with me?
Having had financial struggles most of my life, I started working at 15 and have taken as many jobs as I could in any number of fields, just to make ends meet.
For the first time in my life I'm not surviving it, but I feel like drowning because I feel -blank- I've lost the will power to do anything. I feel terrible because I know people have it much worse than me and they are happy, I have a boyfriend who loves me and has for over 5 years. My parents are great with me and I have both of them alive, I have some friends and the ones I have are true. I have no children or responsibilities other than helping my parents..
Why do I feel so guilty and useless to live?
How do I find out what is my passion, when I feel like I have none. I want to make the right choice. I want to figure out what it is that I'm meant to do and find out if I there is something I love to do, to make a living in it...
Does anyone know how to figure that out?
I'm sorry if this was just crazy ranting... Thank you.