12-13-2010, 04:25 AM
I will admit i have thought of suicide only once that i can remember.
It was November 20, 2009 when my cat died.
I know what your thinking, why be suicidal over a cat?
Well this cat was the best cat in the whole world, im sure everyone says that but he really was, ever time i got home from school he was there waiting, if i was upstairs and he was asleep downstairs when ever i came down he would instandly be awake and want to sleep on my lap & he would only let me feed him, no one else otherwise he wouldn't eat it.
I turned 20 this August just gone & 3 months later he got ran over
I had him since i was 2 and we had never been apart for more than a night.
Now its just getting harder and harder, i have 4 other cats but there all still young and don't care much for cuddles like he did.
But every time i thought/think of suicide i thought of how i could do it but every method just seems pointless, ivnever actually tried it though, everytime i thought of his face it just made me wanna keep going & now its got to the point where i just can't do it.
Now the only things i have left of him is a t-shirt full of his cat hairs that i refuse to was, hasn't been washed now for a full year and i intend to keep it that way ( i don't wear t thought ^.^ ), 1 picture which you can hardly see his face & his cat bowl which i have hung on my bedroom wall and havn't taken it down since last year & every night i give it a lil kiss and say goonight buddy, which tbh makes the feelings a bit worse but i can't stop.
Sorry for boring you, i didn't think id type this much but i got caught up in the moment, lol.
It was November 20, 2009 when my cat died.
I know what your thinking, why be suicidal over a cat?
Well this cat was the best cat in the whole world, im sure everyone says that but he really was, ever time i got home from school he was there waiting, if i was upstairs and he was asleep downstairs when ever i came down he would instandly be awake and want to sleep on my lap & he would only let me feed him, no one else otherwise he wouldn't eat it.
I turned 20 this August just gone & 3 months later he got ran over
I had him since i was 2 and we had never been apart for more than a night.
Now its just getting harder and harder, i have 4 other cats but there all still young and don't care much for cuddles like he did.
But every time i thought/think of suicide i thought of how i could do it but every method just seems pointless, ivnever actually tried it though, everytime i thought of his face it just made me wanna keep going & now its got to the point where i just can't do it.
Now the only things i have left of him is a t-shirt full of his cat hairs that i refuse to was, hasn't been washed now for a full year and i intend to keep it that way ( i don't wear t thought ^.^ ), 1 picture which you can hardly see his face
& his cat bowl which i have hung on my bedroom wall and havn't taken it down since last year & every night i give it a lil kiss and say goonight buddy, which tbh makes the feelings a bit worse but i can't stop.Sorry for boring you, i didn't think id type this much but i got caught up in the moment, lol.