11-04-2010, 06:17 PM
(11-02-2010, 05:38 PM)Alexandrite Wrote: I hate being pleasant and kind, that's for the weak. I like to appear forceful, mean, dominant.
I have an obsession with power.
I often get psychotic thoughts and want to make people suffer.
I suffer from what's called a 'mini heart attack'. This usually happens daily, it's a quick and painful shock to the heart, from bottom to top, I can't hide it, people notice.
I think I suffer from some of the same issues, pertaining especially to your obsession with power and being in control. I try to tell myself that my hatred and forcefulness towards others and the world is not healthy, but I sometimes can't help myself from lashing out sometimes. I wouldn't really consider it "anger management" relates issues, because I feel that I can control my anger with ease. It's not that I can't control my anger and frustration towards society, it's that something deep down doesn't want me to. It can be quite irritating, and I have lost many relationships with relatives and friends due to this problem.
I'm happy to hear that I may not be the only one. Thanks for sharing.