08-07-2010, 10:12 PM
I am very sorry to hear that you are going through such a hard time. All I can suggest is that you remind yourself that your grandfather knew that you loved him. You didn't need to have a private conversation for him to know that.
I truly suggest speaking to somebody you trust and love. Maybe your mother? The fact that you mentioned suicide draws a red flag in my opinion. I suffer from depression also. One day I was moping around in my basement, wasting my life on the computer, and it hit me:
You're not just going to wake up one morning, and feel entirely different about a situation. You need to take charge of your lifestyle, and make a change for the better. Try picking a day, and telling yourself that you will wake up that specific morning, and be a better person. That's what I did. Since then, I have had a completely different outlook on my life. It might not be so easy for others, but it did help me.
Also.. If you are really contemplating suicide, you should think about the effect it would have on your family. I assume that you have atleast a somewhat strong relationship with atleast one person in your life. Think about what it would do to them. If you want to disregard your own well-being, then that is fine. Just think about what it would do to the ones you love, first.
If you ever need to talk, feel free to contact me. I know I just seem like a complete stranger, but sometimes having that one anonymous helping hand can make all the difference.
Feel free to PM me or add me any time!
MSN: VirtualReality@mail.com
I truly suggest speaking to somebody you trust and love. Maybe your mother? The fact that you mentioned suicide draws a red flag in my opinion. I suffer from depression also. One day I was moping around in my basement, wasting my life on the computer, and it hit me:
You're not just going to wake up one morning, and feel entirely different about a situation. You need to take charge of your lifestyle, and make a change for the better. Try picking a day, and telling yourself that you will wake up that specific morning, and be a better person. That's what I did. Since then, I have had a completely different outlook on my life. It might not be so easy for others, but it did help me.
Also.. If you are really contemplating suicide, you should think about the effect it would have on your family. I assume that you have atleast a somewhat strong relationship with atleast one person in your life. Think about what it would do to them. If you want to disregard your own well-being, then that is fine. Just think about what it would do to the ones you love, first.
If you ever need to talk, feel free to contact me. I know I just seem like a complete stranger, but sometimes having that one anonymous helping hand can make all the difference.
Feel free to PM me or add me any time!
MSN: VirtualReality@mail.com