Caught between wanting closeness and fearing labels after a rough breakup

I recently ended a long-term relationship that was pretty intense but also kind of undefined. I thought I was straight all my life, but during that relationship, I realized I felt a deep emotional connection that didn’t always come with physical attraction. Now that it’s over, I’m struggling with what that means about me. I’ve tried reading about different identities, like gray-ace or demiromantic, but none of them quite fit because I do want physical closeness sometimes, just not always or in the usual ways. I’m also worried about labeling myself wrong or confusing people if I bring this up with new people. I want to understand myself better and find a way to explain what I’m feeling without making it feel like a rigid identity or a checklist. Has anyone else felt stuck between wanting intimacy and not fitting into neat labels? How did you approach figuring out what felt right for you without pressure to define everything immediately?