09-01-2012, 03:37 PM
hey,
i have dealt with a mother who has mental illness for almost a decade now. and prior to that 5 years of drinking and arguing. im an only child who she raised well and provided for all my needs, im really grateful. but she drank a lot, became somewhat skitzo, with a ton of other delusions. its so hard to deal with, i really feel on my own and it seems when i try to talk to other people about it they really cant even grasp the craziness the she has spit into the phone and i try to bare with. and other times shes my sweet old mom again. needless to say, i have struggled professionally and personally, in relationships and friendships. i am at my last wit, and i know i cant do this without support. this is the first place i found, i just want people to talk to. i want to be happy and live life without having a bleeding heart everyday.
i have dealt with a mother who has mental illness for almost a decade now. and prior to that 5 years of drinking and arguing. im an only child who she raised well and provided for all my needs, im really grateful. but she drank a lot, became somewhat skitzo, with a ton of other delusions. its so hard to deal with, i really feel on my own and it seems when i try to talk to other people about it they really cant even grasp the craziness the she has spit into the phone and i try to bare with. and other times shes my sweet old mom again. needless to say, i have struggled professionally and personally, in relationships and friendships. i am at my last wit, and i know i cant do this without support. this is the first place i found, i just want people to talk to. i want to be happy and live life without having a bleeding heart everyday.