Old Short Writing

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I came from HF, was searching around on there and suddenly got linked here, so I took a look around on here, found this spot and it seemed an ideal place for my writing.

I wrote these some time back when I was suffering from a lot of problems in the real world, so these are quite old. I copied and pasted them from my old RSPS forums (That's where i originally wrote them). They were written off the top of my head when I was sick and had to get some emotions out.

The reason I am posting them is because I believe they all have a small, but strong message within them, which can give people motivation in life. They helped me get through the crap. So I hope you like them and they can help you in some way, understand some things.

-I recieved a lot of positive feedback on them on my RSPS forums when I wrote them, so I hope you will like them as much as they did.

Blood Blocked. Blood Clogged,
Veins Bleeding,
Soul Screaming,
Brain Swelling,
Heart pumping with fire,
Eyes frozen with pure ice.
My face looking purple and blue,
Inside, feeling warm to you.
For me, Black shadow,
Frozen burnt.
You can only see the outside,
Feel the outside,
You can never see inside,
Never feel inside,
So stop thinking you know,
Stop trying to find something you cant.

Holding onto nothing,
Falling higher than the sky,
Oxygen flown to my head,
Brain frozen with blood.
Outer body flaming.
Can't think, brain frozen.
Screaming for something,
I don't know what.
Take a step back.
Brain melting.
Outer body freezing.
Silence.

Would you rather burn or freeze?
Would you rather kill yourself or be killed?
Would you rather be bullied or be the bully?
Would you rather kill someone or yourself?
In answer to all,
none.
If you had to choose,
which and why?
Now.
Would you rather fall or fly?
The choice is in your hands,
Make it before you have no choice!

Veins popped.
Heart bleeding.
Skin strong as steel.
Blood filling up inside,
can not pass through steel.
Steel - stone cold.
Blood - Boiling hot.
Brain screaming for help,
YOU, laugthing.
Body hanging onto any last thing,
you know it's too late.
You laugth, watch the body struggle.
Its like watching an ancient person
struggling to become first in the
marrathon.
Too old, too late, too tired.

Nothing left to lose.
Can't trust nobody,
everyone you ever trusted,
let you down.
Soul sank deeper than titanic.
Trying to crawl out the dump,
Falling down,
no way up, no way down, no way around.
Only one way out.
Living pain, why wouldn't i?
Giving up nothing for something.
I'm more scared to live, than die.
To think, you actually did this to me.
Did you mean to go this far?
What does it matter? It's too late now.
The question you ask yourself for years,
Just why?

Is this normal?
I can't think straight.
Maybe just blast my freakin skull.
Wake my brain up.
Let me think straight.
Get out of this place.
Where are we?
fudge knows. This aint heaven,
so it must be hell,
I'm already falling & I can't fly
and there aint no hope in hell.
Better get used to it,
got a long way ahead.
fudge emotion.

BANG.
I've fell down a trapdoor.
How? when? why?
Theres a reason for everything..
Why me?
I don't even remember this happening.
It all happened so fast.
The small cute inocent person.
Rapidly grown into some kind of beast.
Never would expect it, just how?
Like a cute innocent baby turning out to be a murderer.
How does it happen? Why?
Theres no god here,
we're in hell already.
Don't sit there thinking crap won't happen to you.
Because it can and may just well be you.

Lay wide awake.
Tonne of thoughts flowing through your brain.
Same crap everyday.
They say they wish they were back at school.
School is the best days of your life.
Is school is the best part, what the fudge is the worse part like?
Jesus! Kill me now!

Just pop a bullet in my brain,
let all the crap that runs through it leak out.
I can't find no other way to despose of it.
Think i've fallen harder than the twin towers.
Blood turned cold and sticky.
Skin turned warm and wrinkly.
Brain covered in oil. Burning.
That flame won't go out for some time.
Put water on it, spread it, make it worse.
Only thing i can do other than hit the grave,
Just let it go away in its own time.
Things take time i guess,
Just gotta get used to it for the time being.

Insomnia keeps you alive or kills you?
So i hear, sleep is the cousin of death.
Either way, your fudged.
Like everything in life.
In the end...
You are fudged.
Go school 10-12 years,
Get good grades,
Get good job, work rest your life.
Earn all this money. Then death.
Wonderful.
Should I bother?
Why don't i just end it now because,
in the end, we are fudged anyway.
In life, we always end where we begin.

Depression may not be so bad.
Yeah. It's horrible feeling.
But if you overcome that,
you can overcome nearly anything.
Whatever made you depressed in first place,
you can proudly say, your stronger than them or it.
Motivation is 99% cut off for me.
Running on power-save.
Lungs flaming.
Heart leaking black blood.
Veins flowing with ice.
Body aching for death.
Don't say i know how you feel if you dont.
The feeling is unbearable.
To watch someone say they know,
when they dont.
It's a joke and a half.
You're a joke.
Most people just have no clue...

Theres help?
Where? why?
Doctors? load of bullshit.
Held at gun point,
someone sitting there in a babies voice.
"Your parents love you, you know"
Oh really?!?! I'm about to freakin die,
and your telling me that, treating me like a baby?
How about we switch places for a second.
Let your heart bleed, veins shatter & burst.
Let your blood freeze while your brain attempts to find sollutions.
Having a gun held at your head would scare the fudge out of you.
When you feel this way, a gun at your head is rather funny.
Seems pretty fudged up huh?
Well to me, you seem pretty fudged up,
running around like everything is fine,
being a selfish cavity like 90% people on this planet.
You laugh at me for being different, i laugh at you all for being the same.

My guts filled with rotting blood.
Heart pumping ice.
Ball of wire stuck in my brain,
scraping every positive thought away.
World seems fine.
Wait til you fall outa line, watch everything run around,
while you sit and watch. It's a joke.
People fighting over oil,
People bullying because they are truely small inside,
trying to make themselves feel big.
That's why the victims become the bullies.
I'd rather be bullied than be the bully.
People fighting for reputation.
People fighting for drugs, money
People fighting after alcohol.
It's quite funny.
In my mind.
It's not worth fighting for if its not worth dying for.
So to me, your all just pathetic.
Not cool, not funny, not hard, just pathetic.

Feedback/comments when I wrote them in past -From old RSPS forums.

Veng Apr 26 2010, 07:30 PM Post #2
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These are awesome! Why don't you write a book and put ALL your emotions into it? I'd buy it!
Hehe, Keep these coming and I'll donate ;)
Edited by Veng, Apr 26 2010, 07:32 PM.

Abstract Apr 26 2010, 07:55 PM Post #3
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Yeah, your writing is awesome. I love reading what you post.

Geenstijl Apr 27 2010, 09:45 AM Post #5
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Wow! These are awesome! :O
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Veng Apr 24 2010, 08:14 PM Post #2
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Those are awesome. They relate to me. I could give you more info. if you PM here or in-game (in-game prefered)

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awwhh, i like them they make me think of my gyal

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[JohnRonder]

Nice work there bro ;) No need for the feedback as its a different forum but anyhow you got some good skills there m8. Use them for good and make a career out of it.
Thumbs up!

[$kay]

ohh nice im gonna subscribe and will read in future

[Intro]

Not being pigheaded or anything, but are you english? It just sounds nonsensical to me. Sorry.

[Hate]

Not being pigheaded or anything, but are you english? It just sounds nonsensical to me. Sorry.

Yes I am English.

It's fine, it's your opinion. But it may be nonsense to you because you haven't been through the things I have or similar, so you can't relate and understand the story/message in them.

-Not saying that in a bad way or judging, but a lot of people don't understand. Maybe you just can't relate like others. Or you just skim read them without looking for meaning

[Aridity]

Well those are some interesting writings. Great.

[Locke]

Sounds like some kind of Def Poetry Jam in here.

[Tuskarr]

Really nice story man, but to be honest it isn't short, it's quite long.

[Malfunction]

The stories are nice, but why does every other passage include "fudge" or "what the fudge" or "fudged"?

[SleepyTroll]

The stories are nice, but why does every other passage include "fudge" or "what the fudge" or "fudged"?

Due to this forum's censor :p

OP : Very nice, I like them