Personality problem

[majordave]

The yin and yang relationship of extreme opposite polarities exists in all of nature, fitting together as integral elements of a greater whole, balancing each other out. Every action has an equal and opposite reaction. With few exceptions, no one is truely "all good" or "all evil." All of us contain elements of both. We all have some traits of practically every mental illness and disorder that exists, and it's actually critical to our very survival. Without vanity, we would have no ambition.

"Without evil, there is no good." Evil is necessary for good to even exist as a concept, if for no other reason than to provide us with a basis for comparison. No true joy without sorrow. No emotion without indifference.

Our emotional nature as human beings, makes it very difficult, even close to impossible to acheive and maintain a perfect balance. Our inner pendulum, swings in one direction, and then to the other. Sometimes we swing too far in one direction, and then seek to compensate. However in doing so, we often overcompensate, swinging too far in the opposite extreme.

I think the problem you may be facing is that you were too good, too mild, too meek, and as a result you got bullied. You had all you could take, and sought to correct the situation. You did this by finding someone who could help you become more assertive. And it worked too! But unfortunately, a little too well, and now you fear that you're becoming what you dispised.

The journey to finding your balance is actually the journey towards acheiving wisdom. That you recognize this problem within yourself is a major step towards this goal.

I wish you the best of luck!