04-12-2010, 10:29 PM
(04-12-2010, 10:15 PM)Dragon Wrote: So I'm seventeen, and I'm having alot of problems with being happy or positive about anything.
I hate myself, who I am and things like that. I feel stupid/dumb all the time, I don't do good in school and I just never feel smart. Especially compared to my brother and sister.
I am still not over my ex-girlfriend who broke up with me over a year ago. She was also my best friend for three years before we started dating, then she broke up with me for some different kid who's better than me and stopped talking to me. Sometimes I'll text her just to see how she's doing and stuff, then today she texted me back with a reply that read "don't txt me f*g". And that made me feel really stupid. I don't know why.
But almost every other night I cry. Not knowing what to do about myself. And some days I'm scared to drive myself to school because sometimes I'll think about what would happen if I crashed my car and yeah.
I'm sick of feeling like this and I want to be happy. but I don't know what to do. I've been sad for years before this. But it keeps getting worse.
My parents are unaware of any of this.
I don't know what I should do.
In my personal opinion being happy is only a state of mind. When you try and compare yourself to someone else you will always come up short. Life is always a journey, its something you find in time.
No body is the same we are all unique. I grew up with 2 sisters 1 older and 1 younger. I was good and sports/math/science while my sisters where good at sports english and history in school.
Sometimes its best to just go out and try new things you never know what it might bring you. I remeber the day I met my wife of 2 years today it was a week after me and my ex-girlfriend of 2 years just broke up.
I never thought that I could find happiness again, then she came into my life just when I was about to hit rock bottom and everything after that was great.
Or when I did football which I was great at. Did great in highschool then in junior year I was chopped blocked(someone dived for my knees) Took me away from something I loved doing. What I found is that BMX was my sport as I had did it when I was growing up and through my teenage years.
The point that I am trying to make life is only as difficult as you try and make it. IF you dwell on the things that have went wrong. Wrong things will continue to happen, the best thing you can do is just get out there find what you enjoy and stick with it. Becuase it might just be something you never suspected.
Suicide or thinking that hurting yourself is never the answer. It actually makes things worse unless you think you need the help. If that is the case I would suggest talking to your parents or someone you can trust about how you are feeling.