04-07-2010, 11:47 AM
(04-07-2010, 11:42 AM)Elektrisk Wrote: OK, here are my two cents:
I don't think you should focus so much on one girl. I understand "she's different" and so on, but it's clearly not working out for you. She is disregarding your feelings.. can't you tell? She doesn't want to be friends with you. The only reason she is now is because you contacted her again. I'm not trying to be a jerk; I'm trying to give you a wake up call. There're over 6 billion people in this world, and you are letting yourself go through hell just for this one?
I'm 15 as well, and have also developed an "anti-emotional shell" that you have, although apparently not to such an extent. It's a good thing! You're not lifeless, you're just jaded. Maybe the Internet DOES have something to do with it, considering I spend most of my time on it. But, wouldn't you rather be jaded than some über sensitive kid?
I think you are so shocked because you let down this "shield" of yours and the impact of her toying you like that is NOT something you are used to. Maybe you should have gotten close to her, but you shouldn't've let yourself get so involved imo. Obviously, what's done is done, but you're still letting it get to you.
Have you lost sleep over this? I am willing to bet that you have, judging by how much you wrote on it. You owe it to yourself to just get over it. Obviously, that's not so easy, or you would have done it so far, but get this: You have to get the "shell" that you had before back to truly be "okay" imo. Your ribcage isn't enough to protect your heart.
I should probably check what I wrote before so I can give you more of an update. We stopped talking.
Anyway, I'm aware of the fact that I have to wake up and stop being such a cry-baby about it or whatever, I'm just finding it hard to.