Contemplating suicide

[Canoris]

To be honest; I truly don't believe there is any pain that is unbearable. And I also believe that suicide is never an option. No matter how long you live; there is always someone who has gotten attached to you and it is a selfish act to do so. And you always a decision sir, no one makes you pull the trigger or move the knife across your throat or tie the noose. You have that decision to make your life better or to end all possibility altogether. I am not saying that you don't have the right; I am saying that it is the most dishonourable, weak, and selfish act I can think of.

Have you ever experienced depression? I don't know if you have but seriously that post made me sink for little while. Depression keeps me tied down I've been to the brink and back twice. Calling it dishonorable, week, and or selfish is hurtful for those of us who actually have had to go through with the dam decision. Therapy doesn't help, and Anti-depressants are a crutch that it's effects dwindles with it's use; meaning it won't keep you stable forever. The temporary solution to any problem should start off with talking and getting the hell away from the problem for a few hours or more. After you figure out what you wanna do about it you get back out there and start picking up the pieces of where you left off.

And I have been through these emotions... except I didn't let them control me... I fought back. I didn't let my depression deprive me of the life I now have. I have been to the point to where all I wanted was to lie down and die; drown myself, stab myself, take my fathers revolver and put that .22 through my head. But you can't change the foundational facts; it's wrong, no matter how complicated you want to get about it.