Contemplating suicide

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An old memory comes to mind.

I knew a girl, who had a terrible childhood and really no one should ever had one that screwed up or complicated.
She had many medical disorders, and her childhood had messed her up quite a lot mentally.

She was starting to get a lot better when she was about 13. She started trusting other people again, and she started being social in public. Things she would never do before.

Though a few months later she killed herself. I was sad, she had started to turn back to her old self.

About a year ago i realised something. That the pain that she felt each day and had to live through was more then any human could bare.

So without saying more, there is a time to kill yourself. At times it is understandable. And not insulting your situation, but you are far far from that level.

To be honest; I truly don't believe there is any pain that is unbearable. And I also believe that suicide is never an option. No matter how long you live; there is always someone who has gotten attached to you and it is a selfish act to do so. And you always a decision sir, no one makes you pull the trigger or move the knife across your throat or tie the noose. You have that decision to make your life better or to end all possibility altogether. I am not saying that you don't have the right; I am saying that it is the most dishonourable, weak, and selfish act I can think of.

Have you ever experienced depression? I don't know if you have but seriously that post made me sink for little while. Depression keeps me tied down I've been to the brink and back twice. Calling it dishonorable, week, and or selfish is hurtful for those of us who actually have had to go through with the dam decision. Therapy doesn't help, and Anti-depressants are a crutch that it's effects dwindles with it's use; meaning it won't keep you stable forever. The temporary solution to any problem should start off with talking and getting the hell away from the problem for a few hours or more. After you figure out what you wanna do about it you get back out there and start picking up the pieces of where you left off.