Contemplating suicide

[Canoris]

For months I have been emotionally distressed, after my ex broke up with me. For a while I wanted to know why. But since I know things about ("Hacking") I hacked her myspace and found why? She told her friend that it was because I did nothing wrong everything I did was right. SO she dumped me. Now I was ok for a while until school started again and I have to see her everyday. For a while I had been meaning to tell my mom to take me to a doctor for depression, but I have been putting it off because of what her reaction would be like. We still talk daily and I Text her a lot. I still wonder if we can go back out, but I really know that we can't even though I want to. Now other guys are hitting on her, and I feel like crap mainly because I thought that right about now we would be going steady. Recently I started having suicidal thoughts mostly over her.Thing is I still care about her so much. But she doesn't really show the same feelings towards me.I fear that if I don't get medical Help I might actually Commit Suicide just because it really is a lot of pain.

I remember you from HF. You had posted this when it happened several months ago. I think I was being an áss about it though: what was your former username on HF?

EDIT: Answer this: if you commit suicide; are you only hurting yourself?