Feel Bored of life and everything it has to offer

[Clark]

I looked into it, and I think I might have schizophrenia. I can't talk to my parents about it, I don't know why, but I won't get myself to so I can't see professional help.

I went to http://www.schizophrenia.com/earlysigns.htm# and I have the following symptoms from the site:

--A blank, vacant facial expression. An inability to smile or express emotion through the face is so characteristic of the disease that it was given the name of affective flattening or a blunt affect.
--Staring, while in deep thought, with infrequent blinking.
--Clumsy, inexact motor skills
--Sleep disturbances- insomnia or excessive sleeping
--An awkward gait (how you walk)
--Unusual gestures or postures
--Movement is slowed down- staying in bed (in extreme cases, catatonia)
--The inability to experience joy or pleasure from activities (called anhedonia)
--Sometimes feeling nothing at all
--Appearing desireless- seeking nothing, wanting nothing
--Feeling indifferent to important events
--Feeling detached from your own body (depersonalization)
--Hypersensitivity to criticism, insults, or hurt feelings
--Sudden irritability, anger, hostility, suspiciousness, resentment
--Depression- feeling discouraged and hopeless about the future
--Low motivation, energy, and little or no enthusiasm
--Suicidal thoughts or suicidal ideation (Kind of? As mentioned in the OP)
--Severe Anxiety
--Dropping out of activities and life in general
--Inability to form or keep relationships
--Social isolation- few close friends if any. Little interaction outside of immediate family.
--Increased withdrawal, spending most of the days alone.
--Becoming lost in thoughts and not wanting to be disturbed with human contact
--Neglect in self-care- i.e. hygiene, clothing, or appearance
--Finding it difficult to deal with stressful situations
--Lack of goal-directed behavior. Not being able to engage in purposeful activity
--Functional impairment in interpersonal relationships, work, education, or self-care
--Inappropriate responses- laughing or smiling when talking of a sad event, making irrational statements.
--Intense and excessive preoccupation with religion or spirituality
--Drug or alcohol abuse

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When i'm alone, I feel like I can hear screaming but I can't make out what is being screamed, it's weird, I just feel screams in my head on top of all the symptoms. After reading that i'm really scared about what this could mean.

Alot of people with depression and anxiety experience those exact symptoms. It's rather normal for someone with depression to experience them HOWEVER if you're hearing voices or screaming in your head then there's a very good chance you could have schizophrenia. If that's the case you need to consult a psychologist.

Best of luck, keep us updated.