Just feeling bad

[Koekert]

It isn't actually . It's about your mindset . Even I have been in such situation . You have to forget her and make a move . You can't allow this to mess your studies . Studies is more over important than her right now . If she's worth of you , she will miss you , understand you and in the future you both will get along .

I know studies are much more important and pretty much decide my whole life, but I just can't get it done. I get distracted, feel sad and lonely when not going out with friends in my spare time which I also do to forget those girls and maybe meet another girl or just try not to fall in love for a while.. Which seems pretty impossible for me.

I think I'll really have to set things straight very soon. Final tests are coming closer and if I screw things up I know I will regret it and hate myself for the rest of my life. Oh well, at least I won't hurt anyone but me that way.

The problem is my self-esteem has grown thus far I think I can get somewhere big without having to finish school and stuff. Those rich guys like Gates, Jobs etc who are freakin rich and haven't finished college don't really encourage me as well, however I know there's no chance I will ever get that far. I have the attention span of a monkey and just get distracted too easily.