05-16-2012, 02:31 PM
So...as you all might have expected...there's this girl. She's not like other girls. She has no interest in dating or being in a relationship. She doesn't even have a real crush, nick jonas doesn't count. (or so she pretends, but I strongly believe it's real) She's 17 too. We've known each other for 2 years now but got close only in the last year. She once said to me that she doesn't want to date until she is 20 at least, focusing on studies and all that. She looks pretty beautiful and is extremely good at academics too. I would describe her as a mommy's girl. She hasn't even been out with a guy, even as friends, yet, cause her mom doesn't allow due to the fear of being the victim of their building society's drama I guess.
Anyways, the point being, I've gotten pretty attached to her now. We've both finished our 12th now and will be going into separate fields in college now. Realistically, staying in touch requires a mutual effort. I'm always the one who texts her first almost daily and tries to keep the conversation going. She barely texts first, maybe she's like that with everyone, but still...
I feel like she isn't as attached to me as I'm to her, which true. Moving on would be more easier for her as her social life is far better than me, as in she has farmore friends. I don't really have many friends per se.
Idk what my problem is exactly. I'm somewhat insecure. It's VERY hard for me to let go. I want her to be more attached to me. It feels like she's almost indifferent. It makes a difference to me if we dont talk for 2-3 days but it barely makes any difference to her. That's what is killing me. I know I might be blowing a 'small' thing way out of proportion..but it's been bothering me a lot. It's been 4 days since I haven't contacted her. She doesnt even feel like saying hi in 4 days? Why is she so indifferent? It's not like she is busy, she is at home all day, just doing timepass since we have our vacations now. Neither is she sad/depressed.
Anyways, the point being, I've gotten pretty attached to her now. We've both finished our 12th now and will be going into separate fields in college now. Realistically, staying in touch requires a mutual effort. I'm always the one who texts her first almost daily and tries to keep the conversation going. She barely texts first, maybe she's like that with everyone, but still...
I feel like she isn't as attached to me as I'm to her, which true. Moving on would be more easier for her as her social life is far better than me, as in she has farmore friends. I don't really have many friends per se.
Idk what my problem is exactly. I'm somewhat insecure. It's VERY hard for me to let go. I want her to be more attached to me. It feels like she's almost indifferent. It makes a difference to me if we dont talk for 2-3 days but it barely makes any difference to her. That's what is killing me. I know I might be blowing a 'small' thing way out of proportion..but it's been bothering me a lot. It's been 4 days since I haven't contacted her. She doesnt even feel like saying hi in 4 days? Why is she so indifferent? It's not like she is busy, she is at home all day, just doing timepass since we have our vacations now. Neither is she sad/depressed.