05-13-2012, 07:53 PM
I've tried to kill myself 3x in my life..
6th Grade:
[X] Bestfriend killed herself
[X] Parents were fighting
[X] Developed a strong eating-disorder
- Attempted Suicide Once -
Now:
[X] Family problems reacted
[X] Death happened in the family
[X] Many of my good friends started cutting, which I can take partial blame
[X] A girl I had been chasing after for awhile hurt me again and again
I learned how to make chloroform and I thought why not just take a quick shortcut out, but no matter what I try, I just don't die...I swear I dont.
I hung myself in 6th grade and it failed, I said, "Naw I don't wanna die today" and 5days ago I smelled a good chunk of chloroform and I fell asleep for I think it was 16 hours and I woke up and I puked for like 2 hours straight and I kept seeing this dusty crap(chloroform) coming out and it was like, I wasn't suppose to die. I feel bad for what I did, I guess I shouldn't do that again, I just don't die.
Now I'm extremely happy, I hungout with this girl I reallllyyyy like...she is not only well extremely cute and all, but she is sooo nice and funny(sound like a girl hahaa) and her bestfriend thinks I should ask her out soon, and well life just went from the complete shitters to the almost absolute best...wow...can't life be one steady stream of happiness?
The good news of this whole post, is I'm alive, healthy, and I'm just happy I guess, I got to pick that girl I like up by the stomach and dive into the pool with her and she was laughing so hard when she got pushed in, and she held onto me after we were in the pool, almost excessively...well thats all...needed to vent this out somewhere.
6th Grade:
[X] Bestfriend killed herself
[X] Parents were fighting
[X] Developed a strong eating-disorder
- Attempted Suicide Once -
Now:
[X] Family problems reacted
[X] Death happened in the family
[X] Many of my good friends started cutting, which I can take partial blame
[X] A girl I had been chasing after for awhile hurt me again and again
I learned how to make chloroform and I thought why not just take a quick shortcut out, but no matter what I try, I just don't die...I swear I dont.
I hung myself in 6th grade and it failed, I said, "Naw I don't wanna die today" and 5days ago I smelled a good chunk of chloroform and I fell asleep for I think it was 16 hours and I woke up and I puked for like 2 hours straight and I kept seeing this dusty crap(chloroform) coming out and it was like, I wasn't suppose to die. I feel bad for what I did, I guess I shouldn't do that again, I just don't die.
Now I'm extremely happy, I hungout with this girl I reallllyyyy like...she is not only well extremely cute and all, but she is sooo nice and funny(sound like a girl hahaa) and her bestfriend thinks I should ask her out soon, and well life just went from the complete shitters to the almost absolute best...wow...can't life be one steady stream of happiness?
The good news of this whole post, is I'm alive, healthy, and I'm just happy I guess, I got to pick that girl I like up by the stomach and dive into the pool with her and she was laughing so hard when she got pushed in, and she held onto me after we were in the pool, almost excessively...well thats all...needed to vent this out somewhere.