03-30-2012, 06:49 AM
God freakin damnit. I just came home all depressed over this girl. I told one of my best friends I really like her, and he noticed already, just like some other friends. But she just doesn't seem to be any freakin interested. That friend said he'd see us together like a good couple, but I don't freakin know what to do. I like to give her presents, I gave her flowers when she came home from vacation to Curacao, I gave her chocolate once which she seems not to be so fond of, and I don't want to be like a freakin stalker. Would asking her best friend if there'd be any chance for something to happen between is be weird and a no-no? She is a good friend of mine too so I think I can trust her. I just really want to freakin tell someone all my feelings right now. Preferably someone who I know and she knows as well, so I don't get to hear I'd just have to go for it but hear something realistic. I mean, I am not a pessimistic person, at all, but just being with her right now gets me very depressed. Especially right now. I just wanna freakin end this all. If I am not just going on for her I'd be going on to make something out of my life, but I am screwing up school as well so I don't see why I am still sticking around anymore. Oh god, how many times I've thought about just walking away and being like that guy from "Into the wild" already... Really, I wouldn't freakin care anymore if it ended the same way like in the movie. I don't freakin care about anything anymore! AT ALL!