02-11-2012, 02:31 PM
(02-05-2012, 02:41 AM)Samurai Wrote: Just some background information. I have liked this girl from the beginning of year 10. It started to become love and from that point up in till now. Two and a half years I have refused sex, and other advances from other girls because I only want it to be with her. In December after all this time she said she had feelings for me. It was the happiest month of my life. Before that everything sucked. Then in January she ended it, all she said to me was she prefers us as friends. But now she won't even speak to me, she ignores her friends when they tell her to speak to me and she got annoyed when I asked to see her. I have to see her everyday in college. Once again like before I'm horribly depressed, Hate myself, always angry. Home life sucks, it's boring with only a couple of other houses and it's shouting everyday.
I have tried anything to get happy. but I can't. So now I'm doing drugs and soon I will start to cut. It's only a matter of time before I lead on to the worse. And before any of you say 'oh you're doing this over a girl'. She was not just a girl. She is way more than that. And it's not just her. I'm fed up with the depression and anger. It's either hurt me or hurt someone else.
I don't know what to do. I can't move on when I see her everyday. I dream of her every night, but that's not long as sleep is hard for me.
Read what you had to say, Look man; Don't think you have to do drugs over a girl YOU think you love and is your soul mate.
Self injuring yourself isn't the way to solving this issue. I see these type of issues all around in daily life.
If she ignores you, learn to do the same. Do not butt kiss someone who doesn't show emotion for you.
Let that person fly on it's own and you do the same.
Go out and experiment new things - No, not drugs.
Get your mind off her for a while, it'll be good for you.