01-23-2012, 07:54 PM
I have no idea what is wrong with me or why this is such a big problem.
I went out with this girl almost three or four months ago. We broke up and that was that. But, after a week, we started to talk more seriously than we did while we dated. The relationship before revolted around sex. We talked for a couple weeks straight until Thanksgiving break. That Friday, I took a couple pills of ecstasy and told her. Her friend calls me and says that I am a stupid motherfucker for doing it and blah blah blah. Five minutes later, my ex calls me and starts messing with me by making orgy sounds and saying I should go masturbate and so on and so forth. I hang up on her a couple of times before we went back to texting. I do not remember what we talked about but I ended up telling her that I still liked her and she "supposedly" still liked me. Sometime during the break, I realized that I was being stringed along until she got a new boytoy.
Two weeks before winter break, I took more pills at school and ended up telling her that I really wanted to get back with her and other statements that should have stayed unsaid.
Christmas break comes and I knew she was already talking to another guy. So, I did not text her at all and she ended up getting what she wanted.
All the way up till now, I have stayed strong and tried to move on from her. Obviously, I haven't and it is becoming unbearable and obsessive. I have been taking so much ecstasy that I am becoming depressed because of it. Drugs are not working anymore and I am too mentally unstable to think of a better escape.
TL;DR: I love this girl even after she has broken my heart twice. I need an escape other than drugs to help me forget her.
I went out with this girl almost three or four months ago. We broke up and that was that. But, after a week, we started to talk more seriously than we did while we dated. The relationship before revolted around sex. We talked for a couple weeks straight until Thanksgiving break. That Friday, I took a couple pills of ecstasy and told her. Her friend calls me and says that I am a stupid motherfucker for doing it and blah blah blah. Five minutes later, my ex calls me and starts messing with me by making orgy sounds and saying I should go masturbate and so on and so forth. I hang up on her a couple of times before we went back to texting. I do not remember what we talked about but I ended up telling her that I still liked her and she "supposedly" still liked me. Sometime during the break, I realized that I was being stringed along until she got a new boytoy.
Two weeks before winter break, I took more pills at school and ended up telling her that I really wanted to get back with her and other statements that should have stayed unsaid.
Christmas break comes and I knew she was already talking to another guy. So, I did not text her at all and she ended up getting what she wanted.
All the way up till now, I have stayed strong and tried to move on from her. Obviously, I haven't and it is becoming unbearable and obsessive. I have been taking so much ecstasy that I am becoming depressed because of it. Drugs are not working anymore and I am too mentally unstable to think of a better escape.
TL;DR: I love this girl even after she has broken my heart twice. I need an escape other than drugs to help me forget her.