Why can't I get over him?

[AceInfinity]

I don't even know how to begin moving on. I'm not afraid of change, I want change. There's nothing here to do but watch my brother slowly kill himself with drugs and think about a boy that I used to know. If nothing else is changing, how can I?

Again, nothing is changing because you don't allow it to, you're waiting on something to motivate or to give you the signal to change. Why are you waiting for other things to change before you can make change happen?