12-27-2011, 03:29 AM
Pretty much my life in a nutshell right now is that my mom has stage four cancer, I'm an 18 y/o who doesn't know how to pay for college because I don't qualify for financial aid yet my dad wont give me any money, my dad and I get into fights everyday (one of which he almost got "physical"), and my friends (most, not all) have been getting angry at me because I vent too much, so I've learned to not go to anyone who I am close to for emotional support anymore.
With that aside, one of the things that has been getting me down almost worse than what I just stated (besides my mom having cancer) is that, for as long as I can remember, I've essentially have lived in my head. What I mean is that I would spend hours (even a day at some points) thinking up story ideas... I know this is gonna make me sound like a psycho, but I get depressed knowing I will never lead the amazing adventures I like to run characters in my head through, and that I will never be as extraordinary or as important as these imaginary figures I make up. Also, I am sorry if I come off as a whiner (especially in that first paragraph, just wanted to put in perspective how much not living out my stories bugs me). Any advice?
With that aside, one of the things that has been getting me down almost worse than what I just stated (besides my mom having cancer) is that, for as long as I can remember, I've essentially have lived in my head. What I mean is that I would spend hours (even a day at some points) thinking up story ideas... I know this is gonna make me sound like a psycho, but I get depressed knowing I will never lead the amazing adventures I like to run characters in my head through, and that I will never be as extraordinary or as important as these imaginary figures I make up. Also, I am sorry if I come off as a whiner (especially in that first paragraph, just wanted to put in perspective how much not living out my stories bugs me). Any advice?