What is acceptance?

[SoulCake.]

You dont think you can trust people you care about?

No, you can care about someone without trusting them.
I never want to see you unhappy. That doesn't mean I trust you.

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I know what you meant by being talked to because you have boobs.

It means he only talks to you because you're a girl and most men you've encountered only talk to you because in their heads, on some level, in a relative alternate universe -they can get with you.

Parents always make suicide attempts about them, because it's hard for them to understand that you're life is largely not about them, when you as their child, have been most of their life for a very long time.

Being most of their life doesn't necessarily make them good parents, you can be all they live for and work for, or the excuse they hide behind, or the target at which to aim all the blame and guilt for all that went wrong with them. Parents, are also people.

Your mom was wrong to say that. But you can't really help her see it differently. Not right now anyway -these things take time.

I know why you let yourself be felt up. It was simply a step in this process you call acceptance and is partly giving up.

The guy would not budge and you didn't have the strength in you to tell him off, you didn't enjoy it -you just wanted it to be over.

You're tired that's what's making you feel numb inside, that move between caring so much it hurts to not caring at all even when it does.

But you're 16. It will continue to suck for a while.
There are things you can't change and one of those is the past.

It can get better. It will get better.

If people think of you as a whore, you just have to work on the things you need to change to move on from that reputation.

You can't change the past but you can change the future. I don't know if the "secret" will do it for you. It helped me, but I know how you feel, even if for different reasons.

If you need a friend. I'm here and I'm not just saying that. I can't PM you, but I'm here. We're all kind of broken but we can get better.

After the volcano bursts, the most fertile lands come up.

Take some time to think about what you want, rather than what you've had. Visualize it, and look for the path within, you'll find tiny steps you can take to make things better now.



I honestly think it's quite hypocritical of society to judge women with the so called "whore" word when everything they do is promote that exchange.

I know it gets better. But until it does, what do I do with myself? How do I improve a reputation I didn't earn in the first place? How do I explain myself to a mother I can't even look at without feeling endless rage towards her? Why would I even need to? When you grow tired of lying on the ground, people walking on you, when you get to your feet, you struggle to stand. It's easier to lie back down.