12-10-2011, 04:15 PM
Here we go again I guess... Things seem getting worse for me, seems like I'm losing all my "friends". Damn, it's Saturday night and most of it I spent roaming around town alone, just because I couldn't stand staying at home and I had no one to call. Luckily I found a two friends of mine after an hour or so, so I spent the rest of time with them. It was like being alone, same crap. My 18th birthday is soon, my parents are broke. I should buy a couple of rounds for it at the bar to my friends, but I can't. I feel stupid for it. Also, I'm 18th never kissed or had a gf. Haven't accomplished anything valuable of saying yet. I've been trying to change myself for the past year and a half but nothing changed for better, only for worse. Most people thing I'm an alcoholic and a junkie, but I'm not, cause I drink maybe 5-6 beers a week, and I don't do drugs except marijuana (once in every one-two months) Most of the time I'm alone, even in school. fudge it, getting OD'd on pills and alcohol is becoming a better idea every day as it pasts.