I am obsessing over a prof at college!!!!!!

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As I understand, my infatuation stems from a curiosity.I feel an indomitable urge to understand him and his negative behaviours in class. On one hand, he's all that (judgmental, egoistic, unfair etc) and on the other, charismatic and genius-like. I want, as I understand, to find out what causes him to behave negatively like that. I'd spent time lazily pondering over the contradictions, and for some reason become "fascinated" with them. Like, it had almost become a "challenge" for me to go and figure him out. This was the main root of my obsession which gradually turned into a crush. I know that nothing is possible between him and me, but I AT-LEAST wanted to strike up a warm, cordial relationship with him. And that's what is paining me the most. Like, I was planning to go up to him and ask him to explain certain topics on my course, but now I cannot do that any more. I cannot show my face to him anymore.What did he think of me??

You need to just tell yourself to relax here.

Nothing is really bad about what just happened, but if you noticed, you're asking a lot of questions now. This is a reaction that people generally have as a security impulse so that we don't get "hurt". People make up all the reasons for why they can't do something, even though it could most definitely be achievable.

"Like, I was planning to go up to him and ask him to explain certain topics on my course, but now I cannot do that any more" - Why not? He is your prof, you can lighten the mood by giving an apology, and even a gift if you want, something really small. But realize he is human too. We all have feelings, and i'm sure it will make his day better knowing that you at least care about whether he was mad or not, trust me. The more you don't do anything about it, the more damage it can do than what you think, as opposed to actually confronting him. Because on the other end, he could be thinking the exact same things... "I wonder if she did something on purpose to let me get all of those calls?"

NOT A BIG DEAL though I get in trouble sometimes with miscommunication with other females, but after I go up and talk to them about it, they usually understand.

Guys are the same way, We have feelings too.

Btw, thanks again for looking in. Meant a LOT to me.

No problem btw