06-14-2011, 03:38 PM
Oh boy here we go SF.
I signed up mainly for support forums because i knew that this place will most likely help me with my problems in life so i guess starting now since im feeling a little down today im going to start telling u guys/girls some things i want to improve on in my life
I am only 17 years old and ive fallen in love and it turned around and smacked me hard in the face.... i dated a girl for 2 years and she cheated on me because of that i went and did drugs and turned down the wrong rode and pretty much screwed up my hole teenage life i dropped out of HS and would drop ecstacy and acid all the time and ended up turning to cocain and other hardcore drugs (mainly psychedelics).
Because i was hurt so bad i now have depression and anxiety and im bi polar
i randomly have mood swings where i get all depressed and think about how im a loner and do nothing but sit online all day.... but we have a little problem actually its a huge problem and this is what i want to overcome before i overcome anything else.
I am very socially awkward expecially around girls.. and if they are attractive its even worse i mean i cant even walk twords a cute girl without looking down and feeling awkward
i have something to admit too also...
i have really only had online relationships ive never really been the type of person to go to the mall or something with people because i want a girlfriend but im afraid of rejection...
if anyone can seriously help me i want to learn how to not be so socially awkward and go out and start talking to girls and try to find a real girlfriend because this hole internet thing is really getting annoying + there is alot of drama on the internet.
These are also some things i want to work on..
1. Anger management
2. Being controlling
3. Jealousy & trust issues..
4. Awkwardness + Shyness
5. Depression [ i used to cut myself all the time ]
Please no trolls.... ive posted on HF before and i was told to come here im seriously looking for help ( i dont have health insurance at the moment )
so i cant seek professional help sadly..
Thank u for taking ur time to read this.
I signed up mainly for support forums because i knew that this place will most likely help me with my problems in life so i guess starting now since im feeling a little down today im going to start telling u guys/girls some things i want to improve on in my life
I am only 17 years old and ive fallen in love and it turned around and smacked me hard in the face.... i dated a girl for 2 years and she cheated on me because of that i went and did drugs and turned down the wrong rode and pretty much screwed up my hole teenage life i dropped out of HS and would drop ecstacy and acid all the time and ended up turning to cocain and other hardcore drugs (mainly psychedelics).
Because i was hurt so bad i now have depression and anxiety and im bi polar
i randomly have mood swings where i get all depressed and think about how im a loner and do nothing but sit online all day.... but we have a little problem actually its a huge problem and this is what i want to overcome before i overcome anything else.
I am very socially awkward expecially around girls.. and if they are attractive its even worse i mean i cant even walk twords a cute girl without looking down and feeling awkward
i have something to admit too also...
i have really only had online relationships ive never really been the type of person to go to the mall or something with people because i want a girlfriend but im afraid of rejection...
if anyone can seriously help me i want to learn how to not be so socially awkward and go out and start talking to girls and try to find a real girlfriend because this hole internet thing is really getting annoying + there is alot of drama on the internet.
These are also some things i want to work on..
1. Anger management
2. Being controlling
3. Jealousy & trust issues..
4. Awkwardness + Shyness
5. Depression [ i used to cut myself all the time
]Please no trolls.... ive posted on HF before and i was told to come here im seriously looking for help ( i dont have health insurance at the moment )
so i cant seek professional help sadly..
Thank u for taking ur time to read this.