Not giving a crap

[Kharnage]

There has been way too much drama going on with my life recently. I can't help but realize it is affecting me in a way. I wasn't like this before, before nothing could get through me, I didn't care what others thought, I couldn't feel anything and most of all I barely had any feelings for others. I am no longer like that. I am now affected by minuscule things.

I have kept my hacking intentions hidden since the summer of '09, but I cannot hide it much longer. I thrive on ruining peoples lives, attacking them where they have the least knowledge makes me feel better, having them shocked and not knowing what happened to them makes me happy. I make friends now in order to back stab them later. As school days passes I learn more of my "friends" and I learn what can get through them. I don't know how much longer I can keep these precious victims unhurt. It's not the same if I attack those who I do not know, I cannot fully grasp their reactions as I do not know what they look like, who they are and/or what their personalities are like.

The reason I introduced my hacking intentions because I feel like this is the perfect time to strike, but I am reluctant. Should this Halloween day be the day where all of my "friends" are attacked or should I wait longer?

If you chose the latter tell me how I can stop giving a crap.