06-13-2011, 06:11 PM
Hi people, I don't know if this is really a good idea or not but I feel like I have to put it out there.
I feel really bad. I am in so much emotional pain that I can't even bare it. I am even contemplating suicide. I am just looking for the easiest way out if I could find it.
What pushed me over the edge is my ex girlfriend. I know that it sounds stupid but I really have a soft spot for her. So it hurts me that she treats me so horribly. Earlier today she brought her boyfriend over to my house. Apparently he didn't like that I contacted her so he came threatening me to leave her alone even thought she contacts the same way. He threatened to hit me and I tried my best to be a man about it but what a lot of people don't know is that I'm really sensitive and hate violence even though I try to hide it.
I feel like a coward. I feel horrible that the only girl I ever loved and still care for dearly would treat me this way. I hate myself. I just want the pain to stop. I just want to go out and never wake up.
This may all sound stupid but things like this really get to me.
And I know suicide is not a joke, I wouldn't even being saying this if I wasn't actually thinking about it.
Is there any advice
I feel really bad. I am in so much emotional pain that I can't even bare it. I am even contemplating suicide. I am just looking for the easiest way out if I could find it.
What pushed me over the edge is my ex girlfriend. I know that it sounds stupid but I really have a soft spot for her. So it hurts me that she treats me so horribly. Earlier today she brought her boyfriend over to my house. Apparently he didn't like that I contacted her so he came threatening me to leave her alone even thought she contacts the same way. He threatened to hit me and I tried my best to be a man about it but what a lot of people don't know is that I'm really sensitive and hate violence even though I try to hide it.
I feel like a coward. I feel horrible that the only girl I ever loved and still care for dearly would treat me this way. I hate myself. I just want the pain to stop. I just want to go out and never wake up.
This may all sound stupid but things like this really get to me.
And I know suicide is not a joke, I wouldn't even being saying this if I wasn't actually thinking about it.
Is there any advice