06-08-2011, 06:39 PM
I agree with what you're saying. Trust me I've thought of him finding someone else. I can't even deal with the concept. I can't even type it out without the tears starting to flow heavily.
I exercise daily, I'm part of my Church community, I have a very close knit family.. I've tried anti-depressants, therapy, diet.. yet still I'm in so much emotional pain that sometimes it's crippling. I can't listen to music at all... any type of music evokes an emotional response and I begin to cry. I can't watch certain tv shows or talk/hear about certain places because I break down. I break down every single day. Sometimes in the few moments after I've cried for a while I feel cleansed.. and a little better. But then the whole thing just starts all over the next day. I don't want to think about him anymore. I don't want to hurt and miss him. I don't want him to be someone I miss.
I just want to be happy again.
I exercise daily, I'm part of my Church community, I have a very close knit family.. I've tried anti-depressants, therapy, diet.. yet still I'm in so much emotional pain that sometimes it's crippling. I can't listen to music at all... any type of music evokes an emotional response and I begin to cry. I can't watch certain tv shows or talk/hear about certain places because I break down. I break down every single day. Sometimes in the few moments after I've cried for a while I feel cleansed.. and a little better. But then the whole thing just starts all over the next day. I don't want to think about him anymore. I don't want to hurt and miss him. I don't want him to be someone I miss.
I just want to be happy again.