Does my life really sucks this much?

[Peter L]

You are not "fudged up" in anyway. There is a word, it is called anti-social. Seriously, this will be hard and take quite a bit of time, but you need to boost your confidence and be more social. It will all fall into place. All your issues (besides the ones at home) will be solved. Are you confident with yourself? Do you have high self-esteem? If not, change that. Simply dressing nicer, getting a better haircut, and improving your posture can fix that very easily.

Now you need to be more social. Go to every social event. You may seem like a "loner" but then again who cares what people think when it comes to that? Join every club that remotely interests you. Try out for every sport you are interested in playing. You need to make an effort. You will then make friends, and eventually (or you'll meet them first) a girlfriend.

Good luck.