First off, you need to stop inflicting pain on yourself. This might relieve stress and painful thoughts, but there are more safe alternatives that will benefit your health in a better way.
Sure, it may have been 12 bad years, but you still have a full life ahead of you. Committing suicide may be one of the worst choices, just because you have so much time in life to shape it the way you want to.
I know it's extremely difficult, but I would advise you to do well in school. Get a tutor, ask for help, anything. Doing well academically is a vital aspect of your life because it can determine what career you will pursue in and getting an occupation, which will be the source of your monetary gain. Without this, you will be living with your parents for the rest of your life.
On another note, try making some friends. Not friends that do drugs, or drink alcohol, but those that are intelligent and achieve academically. These are the types of people you want to be hanging around, as they might be a source of inspiration, and encouragement. Spending time with people with these lifestyles will improve yours as well. Of course this might be a difficult transition, but you have to realize that this change will be for the better.
A great way to relieve stress, other than self-harming, is exercise. Try to come up with a plan, and stick to it. Not only will these immensely take your mind off of everyday problems, but it will boost your confidence and self-esteem. If you are having further problems, or just need someone to talk to, please feel free to send me a private message. I am on here several times a day, and I will respond without a doubt.
Hopefully you will take this advice to heart, and you take the high road out of your situation. Don't resort to self-conflicted pain, you know just as much as we do that it is not of benefit. Good luck, and hopefully you are able to steer your life in a positive way.
Sure, it may have been 12 bad years, but you still have a full life ahead of you. Committing suicide may be one of the worst choices, just because you have so much time in life to shape it the way you want to.
I know it's extremely difficult, but I would advise you to do well in school. Get a tutor, ask for help, anything. Doing well academically is a vital aspect of your life because it can determine what career you will pursue in and getting an occupation, which will be the source of your monetary gain. Without this, you will be living with your parents for the rest of your life.
On another note, try making some friends. Not friends that do drugs, or drink alcohol, but those that are intelligent and achieve academically. These are the types of people you want to be hanging around, as they might be a source of inspiration, and encouragement. Spending time with people with these lifestyles will improve yours as well. Of course this might be a difficult transition, but you have to realize that this change will be for the better.
A great way to relieve stress, other than self-harming, is exercise. Try to come up with a plan, and stick to it. Not only will these immensely take your mind off of everyday problems, but it will boost your confidence and self-esteem. If you are having further problems, or just need someone to talk to, please feel free to send me a private message. I am on here several times a day, and I will respond without a doubt.
Hopefully you will take this advice to heart, and you take the high road out of your situation. Don't resort to self-conflicted pain, you know just as much as we do that it is not of benefit. Good luck, and hopefully you are able to steer your life in a positive way.