I need help.

[Death Trap™]

The point of living is to actually to enjoy life to make it worthwhile. You gotta go out there to experience life and there many beautiful things out there. Despite everyone might feel they're a burden to others like your family continuous support and also friends, cherish and appreciate their efforts, get through school and get a job to support back your family when they become old. Take some time out to hang out with friends and just enjoy their company. We all need to get some fresh air than being coop up at home while being separated from the outside world. If you don't want to be a burden, you can do little things to help out around the house like clean the house, do chores, clean dishes, make dinner etc and be there for friends who might need emotional support or help them out of depression or make them feel loved by hanging out with them, txt or call them once in awhile. You can also go volunteer at community center who needs volunteers like Food Bank for a couple of hours to help you feel you accomplished you have helped the needy.

Your obsessiveness probably is because that is the only thing you can do. Indudge yourself in it so you won't feel bored or "alone". Trust me I bet everyone felt alone once in a awhile. To me if a friend would call me up, I would go hang out because it would be better than doing nothing at home. Staying at home will make you feel more bored and feeling alone. You need to get some sunlight to help brighten your mood. Too much bad mood can get you sick and lead to other mental negative thinking/feeling. Get out of the house, hang out with friends, make new friends, chat with friends, hang out with family members and just go out than staying at home.