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[Death Trap™]

N U M B I am sure everyone here has been in some sort of predicament as yours. I know you thought this would be best for your GF but without her opinion on the matter is just not right. Have you ever thought of all the pain you will bring to her if you suicided? how she failed to know this secret you kept? How she would feel if she failed to help you? Would that makes her feel useless? How she would feel not seeing or hearing your voice anymore? Did you ever know you might be the only person who cares about her? Did you know you might be the only person who is there for her when she needed it and understands her? You ever thought she can't live without you as well? Your thoughts and action is one sided and exhibit a sign of selfishness. If you truly love her, let her decides herself. If she stays with you, it is because she wanted to be with you. I am sure everyone here has told a lie in their life to get something or even to impress a girl. In being a victim of physical abuse should not put you down, it should make you stronger and learn not to abuse your child when you have one. I have friends who have been sexually assaulted/abused or physically/mentally abused as a child. You know they don't let it get to them. There are solutions to all your symptoms. You need to acknowledge the fact and get some help. Your better than some others. Ever heard on the news a teen girl who lived all her life with a rare and incurable deadly disease that her bf stayed with her till the end. She thought why does it happens to her that her life deteriorates for 9 months. She lived as long as her body can hold and enjoy the best months of her life. She has no choice in her situation. No cure. You have a choice compares to her situation. You can get help.

Article: http://www.aolnews.com/2010/12/18/with-l...ly-diagno/

Suicide is not the way to go. It will makes you weak. Be strong, push forward and live on for GF sake who needs you. Be a man.