12-26-2010, 05:25 PM
(12-26-2010, 05:22 PM)N U M B Wrote: Selfish? I couldn't give a toss. There is no escaping this pain, and the wounds I weild will never heal. I just want to die, and sometimes I wish I could just disappear. I think to my self while crying at night 'would anyone even notice if I vanished?'. I love Izzy so much but I know it won't last. I am a liar, a victim of physical abuse as a child, a confirmed psychopath and a thug. I deserve nothing but to be left to die, but nobody else can see this. I'll say it again, I love her so much. I am in love and I never realized that it hurts this much. Love is nothing to look forward to and I am sure I found it. I would give my eyes to her. I'd let her go, as long as it made her happy. I can not live without her, but knowing that she is not being weighed down by a crap like me will bring great comfort to a frenzied mind, and I will be sure that I can escape from this tesseract of pain. My wasted heart will love her for years after i finally do extinguish my pathetic excuse of existance. But oh well, that's what I get for making the unforgiveable sin of being brought into this screwed up world.
Will.
If you have no faith in yourself why should we have faith in you?