Dear anonymous poster.
Taking your life is selfish. I realize that you sit here and blame yourself for many things you feel you may or may not have done wrong yet you're not willing to correct them but rather worsen the situation? Your situation is far from over. You must have the will to better yourself, if not for yourself, but for your poor family that you speak of. You said you have money however your family has little. If you take your life, you'll affect their lives in ways you can't possibly imagine and I know you don't want to cause them hardship considering the first thing that came to mind when plotting this suicide note is your family.
If you'd be OK with it, I'd be more than willing to speak to you privately. I've dealt with many situations as yours and I've found that speaking to someone about these things can relieve a great deal of pain. If need be, you may PM me or contact me on my Windows Live Messenger account at Solidify@hackforums.net. I hope to hear from you and hang in there.
Taking your life is selfish. I realize that you sit here and blame yourself for many things you feel you may or may not have done wrong yet you're not willing to correct them but rather worsen the situation? Your situation is far from over. You must have the will to better yourself, if not for yourself, but for your poor family that you speak of. You said you have money however your family has little. If you take your life, you'll affect their lives in ways you can't possibly imagine and I know you don't want to cause them hardship considering the first thing that came to mind when plotting this suicide note is your family.
If you'd be OK with it, I'd be more than willing to speak to you privately. I've dealt with many situations as yours and I've found that speaking to someone about these things can relieve a great deal of pain. If need be, you may PM me or contact me on my Windows Live Messenger account at Solidify@hackforums.net. I hope to hear from you and hang in there.