Friend killed himself today

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Today my best friend, cousin, and basically my brother shot himself. A friend and I were driving through town and noticed several cop cars and an ambulance at the friends house. We pulled in at a Subway right next to the house and went inside the restaurant and asked what was going on next door. They said that there was multiple gunshots and that is all they knew. Then my other cousin who was also extremely close to the friend texted me and told me that he had shot himself. He did not know anything else or if he was even dead. Later my sister heard from multiple people he was dead. It was later confirmed by family.

I have never ever been so sad in my entire life. I just keep thinking I will never get to hang out with him ever again. He was so much fun and I was guaranteed to have fun with him.

I keep bursting into tears and getting more and more sad. I have rarely ever cry.

I just want some support

Ok, if this is a troll, it's not a very funny one, if not then I am sorry for your loss. It can be really hard to lose a friend not to mention he was your cousin, too. If only people would've known how he really felt, then he would still be alive today. So sad what this world is really turning into.