Anti-social + more

[Psychosis]

Hey guys, so i am very anti - social i know most of my reason for it and i they are

Long Story (whole life preety much dulled down) ( i am 14)

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My dad left my mom when i was 6 months old, she got together with my step-dad when i was about 1 year 6 months. they used to fight alot and every now and again he would hit hurt and he was a truck driver and she found out he cheated once but they are still together now. i seen what this hitting her / cheating on her did so i have vowed to never cheat / hit a girl and if i see a guy hit a girl to beat the living fudge out of him. I was about 11 when my step-sister who came down every other week who hated it lied to police and said my dad raped her. he went to jail and we spent a total of $30,000 + on a lawyer + bail.

I also went through a HUGE depression during this time untill i was about 13. i became very anti-social only talking to my already really close friends. i have 2 friends i have known since before i was 5 that i could talk do and there amazing friends never judge me etc, them + music is what kept me alive during this time. i also became fairly aggerssive, started listening to heavier music + learned how to play bass and started writing songs to keep my mind off everything.

I am now 14 and not depressed anymore, my dad is not in jail because he took a deal with my step-sisters mom that kept him out of jail now. my family is in debt because of the lawyer fees etc. my life is going preety good now i have made alot of good friends but i am still anti-social. i also have a problem going up to a girl i like and talking to her / asking her out. i think that this is mostly because i am scared i will hurt them like my step-dad did my mom when i was younger.

*also* my real dad refuses to see me although we live in the same town and also refuses to let me see my brother.

so what do you guys think? why do you think i have those problems, and what do you think i can do to get over them.