Hey SF,
I'm posting here today because I feel I need to and I don't think I have anywhere else to turn at the moment.
I'm 16, in College, straight A's, Computing, Physics, Maths, Biology.
I feel I've got a good social life, plenty of 'friends' etc, everything with my family's fine, just the usual 'teenage rows' but only ever with my Mum, not my Dad (Divorced).
The problem is I just feel so alone. Even when I'm with my friends I feel alone, even when I'm joining in discussions and having fun, laughing etc I still feel alone. When I'm not with my friends I feel like they may be talking behind my back and I feel very insecure about that. I think extremely low about myself, I'm 6 ft 4, 206 pounds, I just feel obese and out of place anywhere though.
Whenever I get invited out to places I'm always unsure of whether to go or not, I think I may be impeding on my friends enjoyment etc.
Also recently, I've had feelings of "What's the point of life", "Why should I try hard to succeed for nothing".
I know this isn't a very good explanation of the situation but I just can't really put my finger on it.
For anyone who'd rather not read my wall of text:
- Feels constantly alone, even in good company.
- Extremely self concious (Never had a Girlfriend).
- Low confidence level
Thanks for reading and any advice/support people input.
~Fish
I'm posting here today because I feel I need to and I don't think I have anywhere else to turn at the moment.
I'm 16, in College, straight A's, Computing, Physics, Maths, Biology.
I feel I've got a good social life, plenty of 'friends' etc, everything with my family's fine, just the usual 'teenage rows' but only ever with my Mum, not my Dad (Divorced).
The problem is I just feel so alone. Even when I'm with my friends I feel alone, even when I'm joining in discussions and having fun, laughing etc I still feel alone. When I'm not with my friends I feel like they may be talking behind my back and I feel very insecure about that. I think extremely low about myself, I'm 6 ft 4, 206 pounds, I just feel obese and out of place anywhere though.
Whenever I get invited out to places I'm always unsure of whether to go or not, I think I may be impeding on my friends enjoyment etc.
Also recently, I've had feelings of "What's the point of life", "Why should I try hard to succeed for nothing".
I know this isn't a very good explanation of the situation but I just can't really put my finger on it.
For anyone who'd rather not read my wall of text:
- Feels constantly alone, even in good company.
- Extremely self concious (Never had a Girlfriend).
- Low confidence level
Thanks for reading and any advice/support people input.
~Fish