I've decided to open up about my life, and I need support during this time.

[Pink Floyd]

I want you to read carefully, and make the decision whether or not you decide to take some of my advice. Although it may seem that life as you know it is over, it is not. Your life has thrown you around in really terrible directions, this we both know. It has brought you up to a point of addiction. Your drug addiction has the potential to get worse. Listen. Drug addiction will only outline these negative things in your life. When really, your life CAN get better. Do you want help? There is help. There is more help then you can get on any forum. You need live support. Your life can change, and I have very much faith in you. Honestly, me telling you not to give up probably means nothing. It's up to you to decide what's worth fighting for and what isn't anymore. There's a program called Narcotics Anonymous (ie, N/A) and Alcoholics Anonymous (ie, A/A) While my advice may mean nothing to you, I assure you with all my heart that you can get help through these programs. Here are some useful links. Go get yourself some help, your life can be good again.

http://www.na.org/

http://portaltools.na.org/portaltools/MeetingLoc/