Struggling

[Kcykes]

I'm 16 in the middle of my junior year and I feel as if I don't care about anything anymore. I will not say it is so bad that I would take my own life, but it is getting to the point of where I want to drop out and leave it all behind. My father, although he does not live in the country, is mentally abusive and refuses to stop contacting me through facebook, email, etc and my mother is either out at night or sleeping through the day. My grades are terrible, due to some personal issues, and I am barely on track to graduate. The stress is getting to me and the things I used to do to relieve myself no longer work. Music is just sound to me and smoking weed no longer makes me temporarily feel better. I'm seriously at the point of considering doing heavier drugs such as heroin, or maybe painkillers. I have very little money and although I do have "friends" I have a hard time opening myself up, so much that I can only do it anonymously. I'm not looking for sympathy, I'm simply asking for advice to get by for a few more years before I can start my own life.

Thank you for reading and any advice that you can offer.