I am about to freakin snap...

[-paradox-]

Well that was sure quite a read. You are right, you are all over the place. You state your issues very clearly but you don't seem to have any solutions, the only one being a successful business man and ruin everyones lives. You just have to realize not everyone is terrible, when you're out of the "terrible" town you live in you will notice that the people you are dealing with there, are everywhere. Your only escape is to continue to do well in school and stick to your responsibilities.

If you do you will become a politician, or successful business man. Why not help the community though? Why not improve peoples lives instead of make them worse. I can assure you that being a good person will work better on your conscious than revenge, revenge to your fellow students will effect everyone. Not just them. You don't want that on your hands. How about you endure the crap you have to deal with now since you seem like a mature person and help the children that will be living under your power. Help them grow up to be more like you and not like the dickheads you deal with.

Try being social, sure no one talks to you, that's why you should talk to them. Prove everyone wrong, including the tech guys that you see every month. If you can express your motivation and knowledge about computers at such a meeting and become noticed you'll be looked at more than once, twice, and three times. Make yourself known for good things, not bad.

Suicide? No, I'm not religious so I don't believe in hell but suicide should never be an option. If you are seriously considering this I suggest you meet with a psychiatrist. As soon as possible, the longer you wait the smaller the chance you go. Same with your depression issues, the longer you wait the worse. Talk to someone, not just us on the internet. Let all of this off of your chest with voice, not just text.

I wish you the best of luck. I hope everything works out for you.