10-23-2010, 11:14 PM
Im posting as a guest because I don't want someone to track me down and kill me... No, that's not actually the case but it sounds good enough. Now for the rant:
People are so freakin arrogant and stupid. They are annoying and incompetent. I have to deal with people who's IQ's are like freakin 1/1000 of mine every day and have no one that isn't a low class shitball. I go to a freakin school with idiot rednecks that are such a pathetic embarrassment to society. I am about to go psycho.
I need a vacation away from everything here. I need to divorce my parents because they have only held me back putting me in this godforsaken hell hole of a town and never see them again. I have done everything right, straight A's, 3rd in my class, no drinking, no drugs, no freakin fun, nothing to live for and I am so sick of this crap I am about to just put a damn bullet in my head and be done with it.
Here is my switchblade, why don't I stick it in this electrical outlet? Why not? Hell, I have no reason to not do it only that it would probably hurt like a bitch. Money doesn't matter, always had it, love doesn't matter, never had it, friends don't matter, never really had a real good one.
Obama is a freakin communist destroying my country. I am not antisocial, no one even tries to talk to me. I go to a computer security meeting once a month and listen to people I look up to and they don't look twice at me, maybe because I'm the only kid there. I guess they think I'm just a freakin wannabe. I'm a freakin waste of a good person. What do you think about that? I'm not going to commit suicide because I don't have the balls. So what am I going to do? Absolutely nothing. I want to get away from everything I know because it is killing me.
The people high up in my school have it out for me because I made them look like total idiots because they blew an incident with me out of proportion and I proved them wrong, but I have to suffer from their mistakes so can't trust anyone in the system. The superintendent assaulted me at an away basketball game right in from of a cop, but the cop didn't do anything.. I just have this weird feeling in my head all the time. I think I will have a brain aneurism from it soon.
I'm a very religious and kind person which is another reason I will not commit suicide or ever hurt someone. Maybe I will go to the projects in the city and call some black guy a Yoda and he will shoot me or beat me to death with a metal pipe. Hmm... Nope, to cowardly to do that. Oh well. I guess I can only hope for brain aneurism, heart attack, or something like that.
I hate Scientology, Communism, Socialism, Stupidism, Whoreism, and all the other crap. Oh, and Microsoft is communists, Bill Gates is a psycho who bulldozes friend's cars and stabs people in the back. I like peace and quite, Being able to think and not being disturbed. I never get that. I met my perfect girl once, but not for long. Hell, IDK what I'm doing or saying.
As you can see I have not had a good day for quite some time. I'm going to continue through life as a mindless zombie and lose all my emotions, become one of the most powerful business men or politicians and destroy peoples lives because inevitably I will turn into the thing I hate most. I will probably be the one to turn the US into a Communist Nation because Communists are what I hate the most. I hope you see my logic and what I am trying to say. I know I have it better than the starving little kids in Africa or the child sex slaves in Russia but everyone has to have something to live for and I just don't have that. But I do not have the willpower or balls to kill myself. I will continue with this life I hate and nothing will change. I will never be happy and I am content with that. I love freedom, Linux, and open source software. I respect a lot of people who deserve it.
Any thoughts on the huge crap that I just wrote are welcome. Its just random ramblings that are out of order. My brain is frying in this hell hole and I don't know how to get out of here. I've come to the conclusion its not that I am hurting, its that I am losing my feelings. But I care about everyone else to much to even think to hurt me. I have no one that I trust to stand by me. I hate my parents for there stupidity and ignorance. I guess they care about me in some way, just not a way that is going to get me anywhere in life or make me happy.
People are so freakin arrogant and stupid. They are annoying and incompetent. I have to deal with people who's IQ's are like freakin 1/1000 of mine every day and have no one that isn't a low class shitball. I go to a freakin school with idiot rednecks that are such a pathetic embarrassment to society. I am about to go psycho.
I need a vacation away from everything here. I need to divorce my parents because they have only held me back putting me in this godforsaken hell hole of a town and never see them again. I have done everything right, straight A's, 3rd in my class, no drinking, no drugs, no freakin fun, nothing to live for and I am so sick of this crap I am about to just put a damn bullet in my head and be done with it.
Here is my switchblade, why don't I stick it in this electrical outlet? Why not? Hell, I have no reason to not do it only that it would probably hurt like a bitch. Money doesn't matter, always had it, love doesn't matter, never had it, friends don't matter, never really had a real good one.
Obama is a freakin communist destroying my country. I am not antisocial, no one even tries to talk to me. I go to a computer security meeting once a month and listen to people I look up to and they don't look twice at me, maybe because I'm the only kid there. I guess they think I'm just a freakin wannabe. I'm a freakin waste of a good person. What do you think about that? I'm not going to commit suicide because I don't have the balls. So what am I going to do? Absolutely nothing. I want to get away from everything I know because it is killing me.
The people high up in my school have it out for me because I made them look like total idiots because they blew an incident with me out of proportion and I proved them wrong, but I have to suffer from their mistakes so can't trust anyone in the system. The superintendent assaulted me at an away basketball game right in from of a cop, but the cop didn't do anything.. I just have this weird feeling in my head all the time. I think I will have a brain aneurism from it soon.
I'm a very religious and kind person which is another reason I will not commit suicide or ever hurt someone. Maybe I will go to the projects in the city and call some black guy a Yoda and he will shoot me or beat me to death with a metal pipe. Hmm... Nope, to cowardly to do that. Oh well. I guess I can only hope for brain aneurism, heart attack, or something like that.
I hate Scientology, Communism, Socialism, Stupidism, Whoreism, and all the other crap. Oh, and Microsoft is communists, Bill Gates is a psycho who bulldozes friend's cars and stabs people in the back. I like peace and quite, Being able to think and not being disturbed. I never get that. I met my perfect girl once, but not for long. Hell, IDK what I'm doing or saying.
As you can see I have not had a good day for quite some time. I'm going to continue through life as a mindless zombie and lose all my emotions, become one of the most powerful business men or politicians and destroy peoples lives because inevitably I will turn into the thing I hate most. I will probably be the one to turn the US into a Communist Nation because Communists are what I hate the most. I hope you see my logic and what I am trying to say. I know I have it better than the starving little kids in Africa or the child sex slaves in Russia but everyone has to have something to live for and I just don't have that. But I do not have the willpower or balls to kill myself. I will continue with this life I hate and nothing will change. I will never be happy and I am content with that. I love freedom, Linux, and open source software. I respect a lot of people who deserve it.
Any thoughts on the huge crap that I just wrote are welcome. Its just random ramblings that are out of order. My brain is frying in this hell hole and I don't know how to get out of here. I've come to the conclusion its not that I am hurting, its that I am losing my feelings. But I care about everyone else to much to even think to hurt me. I have no one that I trust to stand by me. I hate my parents for there stupidity and ignorance. I guess they care about me in some way, just not a way that is going to get me anywhere in life or make me happy.