10-22-2010, 01:26 PM
so i'm a lad in sixth form. i'm clever and i'm managing very well with school.
but just recently my best mate, for about 4 years, left and with him i feel like i've kind of lost all my friends.
i spend most of my free periods and lunch in the library because i have a lot of work to do. but the group of friends that i'm in hang out in front of the school and go into town during frees. i try to be sociable and join them but whenever i do i just find myself standing there saying nothing, feeling awkward. most of them are people i know well and like, but i never seem to be able to interact with them in a group.
this combined with the fact that i'm not very confident with new people it's bit like the phrase "water water everywhere but not a drop to drink". i'm surrounded by friends but feel so alone.
i find myself becoming more and more withdrawn, living life within myself just getting things done, not enjoying much.
to be honest i'm not sure what i hope to gain from posting this here but maybe at least writing this out has helped me understand myself more, and maybe there's someone reading this who could offer usefull words.
but just recently my best mate, for about 4 years, left and with him i feel like i've kind of lost all my friends.
i spend most of my free periods and lunch in the library because i have a lot of work to do. but the group of friends that i'm in hang out in front of the school and go into town during frees. i try to be sociable and join them but whenever i do i just find myself standing there saying nothing, feeling awkward. most of them are people i know well and like, but i never seem to be able to interact with them in a group.
this combined with the fact that i'm not very confident with new people it's bit like the phrase "water water everywhere but not a drop to drink". i'm surrounded by friends but feel so alone.
i find myself becoming more and more withdrawn, living life within myself just getting things done, not enjoying much.
to be honest i'm not sure what i hope to gain from posting this here but maybe at least writing this out has helped me understand myself more, and maybe there's someone reading this who could offer usefull words.