I have PTSD, what to do?

[lost_elien]

Hello everyone, I need some advice on dealing with my PTSD.

My PTSD causes an extreme stress on any relationships I manage to find due to my paranoia/trust issues, I've lost more than one loved one due to the paranoia.

It causes severe depression, I have thought about suicide more than once, but I always think of what if I fail, will I be left with half a face, will I be marked the rest of my life?

I don't know what to do, I have no friends, nobody to talk to about my feelings, my only real friends are my animals, and the only time I find peace is when I am out walking alone in the forest ready to die.

Medication has no effect on me, neither does therapy, I don't know what to do anymore guys, someone please help me. :/

i had self-diagnosed PTSD but, see, psychological problems are what they are - all in the psyche (all in the mind)...it's something you basically thought up. naturally, the cure would be something you haven't thought about as of yet. i have no idea if i'm making perfect sense here but the bottom line is you can make yourself feel better. i'm a complete mess being through what i have been through but no one can absolutely tell and i guess that already matters a whole lot. just stay above your problems, never go beneath them ;)