09-14-2010, 07:55 AM
well last night was very hard on me 
i was talking to her after i re read the letter to make sure it was 100% which it was.
and i set it to her but she was really busy so she was replying every 6-10 minutes and i told her i would leave her alone till she was not so busy (she does stuff on this one website that takes up hours of her time) anyways later on i typed in notepad some stuff after we broke the ice (so to speak) and i could not copy it to msn as it was a little long so i took a pic and sent it to her told her to look at the pic and read it, she said ok, she read it but was kinda worried, then i sent her the letter through file transfer, i was so nervous i was shaking everywhere, and the bad thing that happen was this, she did not reply for over an hour while i was still awake, i told her i was really tired so i did not want to stay up too late tonight, but i stayed on till she accepted the file, well she never did -.- so i replied back to see if she would comment again, never did, so i thought she was mad at me or was taking the first part of what i said into thought, well turns out her msn was freakin up again, every no and then, it dont show the flashing orange thing on your msn when somebody sends a new message, i was so freakin scared last night :/ and anyways...i said im getting off for the night and i told her to get the file when she can/or if she wants to(again, me thinking she was mad at me) so i said goodnight to her as i always do. i could not sleep for the life of me btw was so nervous, never been that nervous in my life! so i just got up not long ago, she posted at "6:10:32 AM" her last message was at :4:51:23 AM and she told me she was wodnerign what it is i was thinking about for so long(she knew i was thinking hard about stuff this summer) so i told her some of them which she will read when she gets back on, today is going to suck for me, because i feel so shitty right now, the file transfer never went through so i have to regive it to her and another thing that worries me is she said this
"I'm kind of wondering what exactly it is you're thinking about so much, well I can guess but I'm more so hoping its not what I am guessing. And belated night"
i know she likes me but she has a hard time expressing them aswell...and she has been through alot so i dont want to ruin what we have, which im sure we can work through because we have both been through alot and helped each other out, and our friendship bond is really strong(sorry to sound cheesy)
wish i was able to say it in person, would be so much better, i tried, but now i will be sure to tell her in person so she does not feel so weirded out, but maybe once she reads the letter she will not be so worried?
this sucks when you have two people who have been through alot and have a hard time expressing themselves :/
ok rant off...
i was talking to her after i re read the letter to make sure it was 100% which it was.
and i set it to her but she was really busy so she was replying every 6-10 minutes and i told her i would leave her alone till she was not so busy (she does stuff on this one website that takes up hours of her time) anyways later on i typed in notepad some stuff after we broke the ice (so to speak) and i could not copy it to msn as it was a little long so i took a pic and sent it to her told her to look at the pic and read it, she said ok, she read it but was kinda worried, then i sent her the letter through file transfer, i was so nervous i was shaking everywhere, and the bad thing that happen was this, she did not reply for over an hour while i was still awake, i told her i was really tired so i did not want to stay up too late tonight, but i stayed on till she accepted the file, well she never did -.- so i replied back to see if she would comment again, never did, so i thought she was mad at me or was taking the first part of what i said into thought, well turns out her msn was freakin up again, every no and then, it dont show the flashing orange thing on your msn when somebody sends a new message, i was so freakin scared last night :/ and anyways...i said im getting off for the night and i told her to get the file when she can/or if she wants to(again, me thinking she was mad at me) so i said goodnight to her as i always do. i could not sleep for the life of me btw
was so nervous, never been that nervous in my life! so i just got up not long ago, she posted at "6:10:32 AM" her last message was at :4:51:23 AM and she told me she was wodnerign what it is i was thinking about for so long(she knew i was thinking hard about stuff this summer) so i told her some of them which she will read when she gets back on, today is going to suck for me, because i feel so shitty right now, the file transfer never went through so i have to regive it to her and another thing that worries me is she said this "I'm kind of wondering what exactly it is you're thinking about so much, well I can guess but I'm more so hoping its not what I am guessing. And belated night"
i know she likes me but she has a hard time expressing them aswell...and she has been through alot so i dont want to ruin what we have, which im sure we can work through because we have both been through alot and helped each other out, and our friendship bond is really strong(sorry to sound cheesy)
wish i was able to say it in person, would be so much better, i tried, but now i will be sure to tell her in person so she does not feel so weirded out, but maybe once she reads the letter she will not be so worried?
this sucks when you have two people who have been through alot and have a hard time expressing themselves :/
ok rant off...