As difficult as it might be, I would advise that you try to look at the situation as logically as you can. Yes what has happened has happened, and there is no going back to change that. Yes its very emotional. Yes you should be sad.
But feeling negative, feeling supressed, angry, upset, or suicidal - do you think any of these things would be what your grandparents would really want? DO you really think those feelings are going to change anything? Do you really think that can bring them back? You're young at age, and as unfortunate as it might seem, these things have to be dealt with whenever they happen. See this as a lesson. See this as an opportuntiy. See this as anything postive and wrap it around whatever evidence of hope you need to to justify it to yourself. But know that no matter what you feel, think, or believe - your grandparents died for a reason. Its just up to you to decide if that reason was for you to feel guilt over nature taking its course, or for you to ensure that they didn't die for nothing. Their bood still circulates in your veins. Remember that next time you question your life's expendability.
But feeling negative, feeling supressed, angry, upset, or suicidal - do you think any of these things would be what your grandparents would really want? DO you really think those feelings are going to change anything? Do you really think that can bring them back? You're young at age, and as unfortunate as it might seem, these things have to be dealt with whenever they happen. See this as a lesson. See this as an opportuntiy. See this as anything postive and wrap it around whatever evidence of hope you need to to justify it to yourself. But know that no matter what you feel, think, or believe - your grandparents died for a reason. Its just up to you to decide if that reason was for you to feel guilt over nature taking its course, or for you to ensure that they didn't die for nothing. Their bood still circulates in your veins. Remember that next time you question your life's expendability.