04-10-2011, 11:10 PM
Hello, I'm hoping this type of post is allowed, I read the rules and this topic doesn't seem to break any of them. Anyways, as you may be able to tell, this is my first post. I made this account to get some things off my chest; catharsis if you will. I would really appreciate any advice or words of encouragement.
I took a couple of pills recently with some friends, and my experience did not turn out as expected. I'm pretty positive that the pills were cut with some substances, and within about a half an hour I realized I was reacting to them very badly. I felt very scared and anxious, and at the time I took them, I was in a pretty public setting (extremely stupid of me, I know). My body felt very unpleasant, and I felt very disturbed by how chaotic everything felt. I felt like I was emotionally and psychologically unable to cope with reality. Later that night, I threw up and I started to feel much better, but I was having trouble sleeping. My friends were actually having a great time, and I decided to smoke a little, something that I was much more familiar with and I figured would help me relax and maybe get some sleep (once again, another very stupid choice). This made me feel better for about an hour, but then it all went back downhill. I started having some hallucinations while watching tv, and I started feeling physical sensations that I realize now were fabricated by my mind, but at the time I thought my body was breaking down. I though my veins were going to collapse or I would have a heart attack or something. I was basically terrified the whole night, and my friends were very aware of it.
Anyways, I was awake the whole night, and I slept very hard the next day. Now my sleeping pattern is a bit thrown off, so I'm awake at a pretty late hour and I've been pretty deep in thought. I've felt a little bit anxious and out of sorts since this happened, and I'm just longing to feel a sense of normalcy again. I'll probably start to gradually feel better pretty soon, but I also realize that this experience is something that I'll likely never forget.
Thanks for taking the time to read this, any comments are much appreciated.
p.s. I decided to post this anonymously instead (better safe than sorry), I just forgot to change that in the second second.
I took a couple of pills recently with some friends, and my experience did not turn out as expected. I'm pretty positive that the pills were cut with some substances, and within about a half an hour I realized I was reacting to them very badly. I felt very scared and anxious, and at the time I took them, I was in a pretty public setting (extremely stupid of me, I know). My body felt very unpleasant, and I felt very disturbed by how chaotic everything felt. I felt like I was emotionally and psychologically unable to cope with reality. Later that night, I threw up and I started to feel much better, but I was having trouble sleeping. My friends were actually having a great time, and I decided to smoke a little, something that I was much more familiar with and I figured would help me relax and maybe get some sleep (once again, another very stupid choice). This made me feel better for about an hour, but then it all went back downhill. I started having some hallucinations while watching tv, and I started feeling physical sensations that I realize now were fabricated by my mind, but at the time I thought my body was breaking down. I though my veins were going to collapse or I would have a heart attack or something. I was basically terrified the whole night, and my friends were very aware of it.
Anyways, I was awake the whole night, and I slept very hard the next day. Now my sleeping pattern is a bit thrown off, so I'm awake at a pretty late hour and I've been pretty deep in thought. I've felt a little bit anxious and out of sorts since this happened, and I'm just longing to feel a sense of normalcy again. I'll probably start to gradually feel better pretty soon, but I also realize that this experience is something that I'll likely never forget.
Thanks for taking the time to read this, any comments are much appreciated.
p.s. I decided to post this anonymously instead (better safe than sorry), I just forgot to change that in the second second.