Lately, I’ve been struggling a lot with loneliness. Working from home due to pandemic and all, not getting to see friends as we used to, just not interacting with people on a daily basis really is getting to me. I miss my friends, miss those random little moments. Things like sharing a laugh in the break room, occasional movie nights, and even those silly little arguments.
Don’t get me wrong, video calls help. We do catch up often, chat and laugh. But it’s just not the same. There’s some sort of a physical disconnect. It feels kinda shallow to me.
I’ve always identified as an ambivert – not too sociable, not too introverted either. Quite content with my little group of friends, spending most of my evenings curled up with a book or my fav show on Netflix. But lately, even my cherished alone time is starting to feel more like ‘lonely’ time. All the shows, movies, and all seem like they’re just noise in the background which I use to fill the quiet.
I try to keep myself busy - with work, with hobbies, even learned a little bit of Spanish, all gracias to la internet. I mean it’s not horrible and I’m not in despair, but it is…unsettling, this constant linger of loneliness. It feels like a subtle, raw void, more present some days than others.
I’m not sure if it’s just me 🤔
